Yeah; I always had a weird view of Time, like looking straight at now, way backwards and way ahead at the same time.
Yet I never knew what I was gonna be doing the very next minute, or the next day or next year even.
I remember getting a strange inspiration from Comedians, smartasses, and ppl saying things like, “In the Future, you will do or be [x]…”
But not because I’d really agree with them deep down.
But it was more like, “You don’t know my future!” combined with “but I’ll keep that in the back of my mind”.
Sort of like a measuring stick – how much am I similar/different than/nothing like what that person said.
Every prediction someone older than me (or my peers) made about me when I was younger was completely wrong.
Yet, little bits and pieces were right. The people that were the most right? The weird and funny, odd, eccentric wizard-next-door people, the cat ladies, the oddballs.
Like right now, you’re into photography. Will you always be? Who the heck knows But there’s stuff you do/think that spills over into other parts of life that seem to have nothing to do with photography and helps bring a kind of clarity, focus, way of looking and thinking about the world that’s unique and nothing like anybody else who ever walked the planet.
That part’s the most awesome part to me; being surprised at how much I could be a lot like someone else (following a stereotype or playing a role, or going through some parts of life as if I’m living through a really bad movie script) and other parts where nothing like me has ever existed, anywhere in the history of humanity, nor ever will again.
I dunno; I just love existence. For all the crap that happens, the times I “didn’t ask to be born”, there’s even more times where I’m like, “woah, I’m glad to be here to see this!”, especially with the little things.