What’s weird is I was often told that I’m abstract; “you’re the most abstract person I know!” but I think what it meant was I was outputting in a form that was foreign to them; it all made sense to me but I couldn’t translate it so it seemed to be abstract to them. But I could explain it; I can always explain it. Still might not make sense though.
I think the reason for relying so heavily on motor and on consciousness is to prevent drifting off into catatonia land maybe? I don’t know. I don’t want to find out; might not return