What constitutes “me”?
Example: I’ve always been good with money. Credit, etc. Past year? While successful in our business, my personal finances went to poop. (I keep the spheres entirely separate as I run a business and also a home)
I let all personal credit cards run up simultaneously in a big grand, “bye-bye credit” which I expect will take a few years to settle again.
Now I find when I go to the store, as the last bits of credit are used, on the final credit card with the tiniest bit of room left, I feel a surprising sense of validation when it still says “Accepted”.
So, I have attachment to my self-worth that requires Credit or rather a sense of , “I am somebody who manages the credit game well”.
My worldview isn’t changing, but I’m finding out what’s “beneath” the self-image that, until recently, I didn’t realize included credit validation.