Unrelated but I’ve been working on this thing on and off the last few weeks and the behavior really is the strangest thing. It seems that having multiple heads to nodes in a directed graph leads to a situation that you have MANY stable configurations but you can’t predict which one will show up. There’s only 1405 nodes in this directed graph I’m doing and yet a tiny minor change in a far off corner of the graph results in everything shifting. In subgraphs what once was the “base” of a hierarchical grouping suddenly shifts away and something else is dominant. Even when the structure itself doesn’t change but a minor shift in view changes, the priorities in the groupings make a radical shift. It baffled me for a couple of weeks. Why did it keep changing when I didn’t DO anything much or at all? Sometimes I’d simply make a group — it didn’t disconnect from anything else, just grouped. Suddenly other things shifted in response to it as I worked with it. Still amazes me. It feels like I’m working with a living creature.

Unrelated but I’ve been working on this thing on and off the last few weeks and the behavior really is the strangest thing.
It seems that having multiple heads to nodes in a directed graph leads to a situation that you have MANY stable configurations but you can’t predict which one will show up.
There’s only 1405 nodes in this directed graph I’m doing and yet a tiny minor change in a far off corner of the graph results in everything shifting. In subgraphs what once was the “base” of a hierarchical grouping suddenly shifts away and something else is dominant.
Even when the structure itself doesn’t change but a minor shift in view changes, the priorities in the groupings make a radical shift. It baffled me for a couple of weeks. Why did it keep changing when I didn’t DO anything much or at all?
Sometimes I’d simply make a group — it didn’t disconnect from anything else, just grouped. Suddenly other things shifted in response to it as I worked with it.
Still amazes me. It feels like I’m working with a living creature.
addictive too. The more I move things around, the more interesting things make sense. Same network but the addition of groupings which can move together at once while not changing the underlying graph can change how things fold up.
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 No. It’s in the same vein as “the universe will provide” – a vagueness – like a Star Wars “the force” one taps into type of thing.
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I mean, like a Tao or the Christian “Word” / Holy Spirit, Gravity in physics, Karma sort of thing
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Joker personas are commonplace – usually a phase of adolescence but some don’t outgrow it.
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[actually, I shouldn’t pin it to adolescence: in some areas of the world, criminal mischief / maliciousness towards person and property as a sociological thing doesn’t happen until well beyond adolescence.
In one country – I believe it’s in indonesia – the criminal peak is in the late 20s / early 30s.
Different socialization
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 Misunderstood sympathetic character turns out to be actual evil to the core?
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 Then there’s the “gamers rise up” with joker as the symbol, which is a reboot of incels-rise-up from a few years prior, although gamers-rise-up is more of an ironic joke

 

My nephew’s 16 years old now. He was 14 when Joker came out. 14 years old is the PRIME age for that kind of film and every boy in his class saw it, wouldn’t stop talking about it, got obsessed with it.
As a contrarian to a lot of popular media culture (not all), he didn’t see it until much later and excitement calmed down over it.
So I got to hear a lot of it from his experiences through dealing with a lot of “I’m 14 and this movie is deep” in his classmates, through memes he shared or I’d find that either extolled the virtues of it or mocked it, and I watched as hundreds of profile pictures changed into the Joker overnight and stayed that way for a year or more.
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Movies manipulate emotion and logic through music and sympathy and narrative and a movie can touch you to the core if it manages to find those parts in you that it’s searching for, particularly angst or fears.
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 I’m cautious. I avoid powerful things because when one is unguarded there can be unintended consequences.
When a friend would say OH MY GOD YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS FILM / READ THIS BOOK – IT CHANGED MY LIFE, I avoid it. They beg and plead and say “YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND’ and get mad at me. But I know better. I’m just as capable of being changed as anybody else.
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 I join things VERY cautiously. I like having what little semblance of control I have.
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If you don’t master yourself, what have you mastered?
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My opinion will be shaped by what the film wants me to think.
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The last movie I saw in full was Intersteller. I saw it last year. I waited 6 years to watch it.
Why?
I knew i would love it and wouldn’t stop thinking about it. I’d have joined groups talking about it. We’d have found deep cosmic significance in it.
But I waited until it cooled down and nobody cared anymore. The world moved on.
Dune. My god I knew several people absolutely obsessed with Dune. Begging me to read the book or watch the movie at least. But I didn’t want to get wrapped up like them. Ultimately I only saw pieces ,not til years later.
When I do get into something I go all in.
Minecraft. I didn’t just let myself play it to be nice to my nephew. No, I go ahead and start a big server which takes over my life for 23 months.
Stargate. I see the movie in 1994 with friends. Loved it. Years later, a TV show came out. I avoided it. I knew what would happen.
When I did let myself watch it, I got hooked. From 1999-2010 or whatenever the final one ended, I had to see them all.
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April 2013: I decided to cut myself off of TV and movies, except Dr Who. [my first obsession], focus on studying.
I’ve seen a FEW movies, and watched some TV from 2013 to 2021 that wasn’t with other people but not much at all. Maybe a dozen shows. 4 or 5 movies.
I turned my obsessive nature onto studies which I’m still on.
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 I’m not telling you what to do with your life and yourself or what to preach of course. it’s your pleasure and substance for you and I think that’s fantastic.
I had about 10 years of buying DVDs from Amazon getting into experimental films and it was fun at the time. I will go back to it one day.
It’s part of my self-experiment. I don’t watch documentaries for the same reason. They’re an extreme of course.
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My justification is: one day I may be bedridden and sick for no particular reason and need something to watch.
I have such an immense backlog of unwatched TV and movies waiting for me that I will have endless things to enjoy.
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 ok – and I will watch it one day.
I mean, I got deep meaning out of Wal-E and the Lego Movie. It doesn’t take much for me 
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 Someone did a fantastic spoof of it that was funny. I’ll watch spoofs and parodies.
Oh I did see the Matrix movies. The themes (brain in vat, Christ monomyth, etc) were already familiar to me via my old Joseph Campbell studies (Power of Myth) so I didn’t get the same OMG WOAH but they were enjoyable at the time.
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 Oh I know. Joseph Campbell was influential in how I approach mythologies / tropes / movies / tv shows / religious comparison / ideological comparisons / political themes – although he was sloppy. One thing he did get wrong, which I realized during my Russian Orthodox time, was that sometimes it’s precisely the specifics in the theology that makes the difference, not the general themes.
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