# *ugh* so this is cohesiveness. What’s within and a part of this active and responsive process _is_ what allows an object to be an object, a number to be number, a thing to be thing. It creates (parenthesis) around things, “center surround cells”, Derivitive of Gaussians / Mexican Hat wavelet, or just a Gaussian kernel sitting there in its bell curviness, letting the edges fade off into the background. It’s a matter of scale and is participatory. We measure the processes which may snap them into focus as we measure, the process of measuring itself creating the phase locking that we seem to be seeing happening elsewhere.

*ugh* so this is cohesiveness. What’s within and a part of this active and responsive process _is_ what allows an object to be an object, a number to be number, a thing to be thing. It creates (parenthesis) around things, “center surround cells”, Derivitive of Gaussians / Mexican Hat wavelet, or just a Gaussian kernel sitting there in its bell curviness, letting the edges fade off into the background.

It’s a matter of scale and is participatory. We measure the processes which may snap them into focus as we measure, the process of measuring itself creating the phase locking that we seem to be seeing happening elsewhere.

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I want to understand the nature of my own intent. For intent, I need to know what draws my attention. Why am I drawn to certain interests and subjects? What is it that resonates in me where I circle around the same things on a regular basis? What are those things I circle around on a regular basis? What brings them together?I hit a bit of a conclusion point and it’s a bit depressingly simple.It’s one of those “I already knew but was running away from” things.Drew this 7 years and a month ago. The framework that I came to last week was:Background interface foreground interface viewer.

and my problem is: Everything is generally either foreground or background and I have trouble consciously prioritizing in real time how to sort which is which due to limited cognition space. It’s weird to me that there *is* a dual split here but there is.

I work on getting to run on automatic correctly as much as possible, and in certain environments I can do that. In other environments, I cannot.

But everything has a music to it. I don’t want to ignore or lose any of the music. But I have to apparently. So, optimizing my experience of reality given my own limitations such that what is salient is correctly salient and forgiveness for what I relegate to the background in order to have room to process foreground.

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If I can do these things correctly, I will be “stepping out” into the world with full authenticity.From an authentic basis, whatever I do will be fine because it will be mine because I am matching my own criteria. If it is correct for others as well that will be marvelous. But universality is not a guarantee but the least I can do is myself correctly or at least try.
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But we can’t know for sure because our perceptual limitations get in the way and are all we have to work with ,built into the very instrumentation we create.
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I’d thought of rolling my own religion / be-a-guru many times through the years. Couldn’t do the lying or worse ,afraid I might be good at it.It’s the common Philosopher-King dream. Saffron robes, people sitting in awe in multitudes . I wouldn’t want the pressure though. I realized that long ago. Not much for crowds: I like one-on-one but public, like this.

So, internet it is. I found a few generalities that I’m confident about. Background interface foreground interface subject is one of them and it ties into choice, the homeostasis of participation in environment towards salient objects leads to a “phase locking” between construing and construer and construed – and not even in quotes but actual physical phase locking for so long as one’s attention is drawn, whether visually, auditorily, or solely within the mind even.

and it’s so simple – with other aspects so simple too — it’s almost depressing. I can’t simplify more without losing capability. I don’t need to complexify either – it’s good enough and can be stacked.

I’m not a hero.
I’m not going to change the world, not dramatically.
But I can start little blips in other people and they in me.
Only way I can spread healing with and hopefully that’s what I’m doing.

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tl;dr: “it’s all waves man”. “It’s all relative”. “it’s perspective” “world is how you chose as we can only approximate what’s real”. etc. it’s almost depressing to end up full circle. How many rotations through the complex plane did I go on ?

Wasn’t a waste by any means. I can back a lot of things up now that I only suspected before if I wanted to.

So, a journey of self-understanding. Help others by healing hurt by meeting them at their quirky and being supportive of it. Get a lot of the understanding via physics analogies because they feel stronger than literature. etc.

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