That makes a lot more sense. Speed up brain to prevent dwelling maybe, like having enough energy to swim free of constant whirlpool.
We’re on same page. I turned to coffee at 14, cigs later. Kids today got Red Bull / Monster. Reasons same. [[adhd in my case]]. I suspect if I was raised in an environment with easy access to meth, it’s likely I’d have found it, but thankfully it wasn’t around where/when I grew up. Hadn’t heard about it ’til the mid 1990s so staying away was easy.