You got berated into a small child.
That child still lives in you and needs protection. They are not protecting this child in you. So what can you do?
Look in the mirror. Looking back at you is the child in you. Who is also looking back at you?
Adult you. Adult you will protect this child. Reaching out for support from adult you is part of this protection you are giving to him by posting this message. Child you could not do this. You can and are. This is strength. Making plans for the future is part of this protection you are giving to him.
Who is also looking back at you?
You that has yet to be.
Future you is protecting current you _and_ child you.
Tap into future you for extra support when you need it. You won’t let any of your selves down. You got this.