Youtube comment I made six years ago. At this time, I was following a computational model of the brain. “6 years ago KENNETH UDUT On May 11, 2013, I was so inspired by this video, that I stopped it right in the middle and decided to spend a year learning everything I could about the brain and body and the Universe and how it all comes together before finishing the video. Stayed up until five in the morning. Now one year and nine days later, I’m finishing it.” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4y43qwS8fl4

Youtube comment I made
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They hooked me up to a computer that went up and down with notes and controlled a little video game character way back in 1983 in a little psychiatrist’s office in Cranford New Jersey at the age of 11 to help control generalized anxiety disorder. It was combined with guided medication/visualization (such as it was at the time) and utilizing something called “QR (Quieting Reflex)” which was of a familiar format: breath in the 6 seconds, hold for 6 seconds, breath out for 6 seconds. But there’s many variations under many names of this quieting method. I’ve never been on medication for anxiety. I still have it, it never went away but biofeedback gave me the ability to _notice_ my body’s status and make changes in real time as needed ad-hoc. Management. Very powerful tool.

They hooked me up
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i don’t know anybody who had to shoot and kill somebody who wasn’t remorseful and regretful despite all the encouragement from friends saying “you did the right thing”, etc. There’s a reason why three people pull the levers in executions and many people do a firing squad when they did them. Video game meme rootin’ tootin’ shootin’ is good childish fun but unless there’s a screw missing in your head, nobody is glad they took a life. Edit or delete this

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Close to goals. I spent a bit of last night working with Octave, an open source MATLAB to get various tools working so I could create and work with cochleagrams / correlelograms, I got over an obstacle this morning, then several others. I created what I had been working towards — and after all that… .. I realized I already had ALMOST what I wanted already. I just had to rotate it. I’ll probably have to stretch it too. Here I combined both ffmpeg’s waveform/acolor with showcqt after rotating both of them. It’s still not exactly it but this view is a decent compromise for the moment.

Close to goals. I
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Those of us who are FAR AWAY from statue topplings and movings don’t always know the whole story. We see statue go “boom”. But when you learn why statue-go-boom, what you think you see isn’t always what’s there. “On Saturday afternoon, a group of about five dozen indigenous activists of all ages — children and elders included — gathered at Father Serra Park in downtown Los Angeles, just south of Olvera Street. As Tataviam/Chumash elder Alan Salazar burned sage and invoked the spirit of his ancestors, a group of young activists bound the nearby statue of Father Junipero Serra with ropes and tore him off his pedestal to chants of “Take it down! Take it down!”” https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/story/2020-06-20/statue-junipero-serra-monument-protest-activists-take-down-los-angeles

Those of us who
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