Thank you! Sometimes I ask myself, “What if this is the very last thing I will ever say to this person?”
and… I so, I give you my all, with whatever comes to mind. It’s the only connection I have – this thin stream of electrons connecting across spacetime, from my brain through my keyboard, across the Wifi, through my router, to the packet switching stations and servers, down long wires, electrons passing photons like basketballs passing in and out of existence, until it reaches your screen, your eyes, down your optic nerve, and into your brain… into a 6 second phonological loop where the words subvocalize and overlap with the next 6 second period, making a chain that gets compressed into concepts.
And I want some of those concepts, whatever they are, however the deepest parts of your brain decide to compress my words into concepts, to be something worthy so that perhaps one day a tool that came to you from me, one that you’ve made your own, you will pick up and use and it would’ve have been possible if it wasn’t for our communication, even one that’s happening right now as the words leave my fingers.
So… that’s how seriously I take communication online. I could be dead *poof* – that’s that. Or my electricity shut off. Or my Internet gone. Or whatever.
And the opportunity for the tiniest bit of immortality, even if it’s unseen, unknown, invisible is here, at the present moment, as I type… and well,l I’m going to give me my everything.