So, I’ve been consciously processing reality through this little window for about that long.

Very true Peter. Myself, I was born 1/2 deaf and 1/2 blind and had a stutter. The stutter correction in the 3rd grade, which was training to “stop and pause” while I think and speak, seemed to create a little “gap” in my head that I seem to process every sense in very consciously.

[it was expanded in other ways by other things – biofeedback at 11 for anxiety issues and I could go on through the years with other techniques]

So, I’ve been consciously processing reality through this little window for about that long. Maybe everybody does – but I only know my experience.

I don’t hear everything but I pretend to, and in order to do that, I’m aware of word substitution, or completing Markov chains consciously, or finding synonyms that fit the context of a sentence when it’s unclear, all at the speed of conversation… which is why verbal communication can be taxing for me sometimes, especially while pretending to be like everybody else.

I can feel the risings and fallings of emotional senses while living within this ‘gap’ in my brain, detangling them as they happen so I can decide my best course of response.

I try to avoid emotional situations for that same reason : it’s taxing.

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