I’m actually a lot like you. I don’t think you’re crazy at all. [I don’t believe mental illness is a real thing anyway; if it has no physical cause then it’s just a different way of looking at things]
Anyway, the reason why I’ve shifted over to being impressed by exactly the OPPOSITE stuff of what I used to is because my mind is already filled with multiverse, GUT, sci-fi, time travel, a trippy outlook on things, [self-hypnosis for example always came easy for me – I just have to breath and think a thought I never thought of before [or think I never thought of before]).
So it’s because my mind is automatically filled up with that stuff, I’ve been forcing myself to be ‘grounded’ and start to see, “ok, what actually brings food to the table” as it were.
So, I keep a foot on both sides of the doorway, looking at the doorjamb much of the time and trying to see into both rooms at once.