Or am I back to square one?
Or is this just something I have been given to struggle with?
Moving to the monastery will be the best thing.
Do you wait?
If you continue to wait, what seems to be where you keep returning to, what do you do with each day?
You had it all mapped out, time and time again.
Yet, the only time you ever seem to get anything done, it is spur of the moment, without much planning, and letting God handle everything else for me. Me me me me. Oy!