P. Orbis Proszynski my dream world is extremely colorful and vivid.
I looked up alexithymia just now and I don’t seem to fit there.
i’m still not even sure if autistic spectrum is correct yet much of it fits.
so i dunno. i’m constantly scanning what I’m thinking and feeling as I am thinking and feeling it.
I suspect that’s to keep it under control.
so much of this might be a façade even to myself.