Only when stressed. Diagnosed with “Generalized Anxiety” as a kid, so mom took me to biofeedback and guided meditation as she didn’t believe in drugs for that stuff. Did it work? Mostly. I also restructure my surroundings and life choices. It’s my world and I like it. But I know the feeling.

Only when stressed. Diagnosed with “Generalized Anxiety” as a kid, so mom took me to biofeedback and guided meditation as she didn’t believe in drugs for that stuff.

Did it work? Mostly. I also restructure my surroundings and life choices. It’s my world and I like it.

But I know the feeling.

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The word my mom used to describe my state before biofeedback lessons was:

“Inconsolable”

I never could get anything more specific. “Was it crying a lot? No. Was it angery a lot? No. Was it frustrated a lot? Closer but no. Inconsolable.”

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Do you ever get into analysis paralysis? It’s like wheels spinning or obsession but it’s levels beyond. It’s quite literally a paralysis. Stuckness. It becomes you.

Acceptance, watching it from afar rather than “I CAN FIX THIS” helps me.

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What confuses people outside yourself is they think you’re not “moving forward” because you’re “just sitting there”

They don’t see the internal desperation going on. It’s an internal battle.

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“I see you and I’m watching you float by like clouds”.
That’s what I turn my internal dialog into.

I acknowledge the unhelpful thought or feeling (it’s a mix) “I see you” – and I allow it to pass over without further engaging with whatever it tries to bring.

Constant work though.

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I have a two second meditation. I look to the left and as far away as I can see, imagining through walls if inside.

. Snaps me back into the present.

No idea if it works for anybody else, just something I do.

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