One of the scariest things for many people is being alone.
Alone with their thoughts.
Meditation frightens people. It’s isolation. You realize that “voices in the head” aren’t for crazy people. They’re for all people. We all have a multitude of voices, images, music, noise, ideas, calculations, all happening seemingly at once.
You can experience it even walking or doing any activity but you have to ask yourself a series of questions on an ongoing basis.
I have this “inner dialogue” CONSTANTLY going on in my head.
I ask myself all the who what where type questions to myself.
If I’m busy on a task and I suddenly get either overstressed or suddenly bored, I look up and ask myself, “Who am I doing this for?” and really trace it back. Sometimes I’m doing it because I “have to”. Why do I “have to”? With a few moments of thought, I can usually trace it back to something. Could be a few words of mean girls in the 4th grade that I was trying to please. Or an art teacher that criticized my owl drawing in the 3rd grade. Or the piano teacher with the chips on the back of the hands.
Much of what we do is to satisfy ghosts of our pasts that are far from present currently.