Now I understand my strong passion about CREATIVITY and PRESENT-ness: [notes below this]
From 1953 – an old study on autism and musicianship
“a rote memory for melodies,
a preference for singing over speech,
a use of singing occasionally as a communicative means but more generally as an expression of an emotional state,
and a response to music heard with rhythmical motions and easing of anxiety.
There was also some evidence that improvement was associated with a decrease in intensity of interest in music.”
Ok. Now I know why I was/am so insistent upon CREATIVITY and PRESENT-ness in music and other arts: It IS therapy. Why did I tap Christmas music with my fingers under the high chair table? Self-stimulation. Stimming. Therapy. Natural anti-anxiety technique.
So with musical capabilities recognized, I went through lessons but when it came time to such things as contests, judgings and my extreme resistance: it was because THAT was no longer THERAPEUTIC. It no longer was a mediator for anxiety but a provoker: no longer a DIPLOMAT for peace but demanded WAR.
Creativity is medicinal.