Nerd (3rd grade. Embraced it by 4th grade and still a pride word for me). Four eyes (ignored it). Millimeter Peter.(5th grade camp. Bugged me ’til I realized I was the only one who even used the shower. Payback for that one? In 6th grade camp I walked naked to the shower down the hall, calmly and boldly and took a shower. Seen by many, gossip started. Butterflies but I was going to conquer it. Came back to room, changed. Came out. “Did you see that? Kenny used the shower.” – “Dude, you used the shower?” etc and a lot of them did after that. I broke the ice and felt heroic. It was a weird victory but it was my victory. Yes, I was weird. Gay: 3rd grade-7th, although by 7th it lost any sting. Payback for that? Read “Sexual Behavior of the Human Male” by Kinsey when I was 14 (I loved data and it had lots), and learned about the spectrum of possible male behaviors. Weirdo: embraced that early. Teacher’s Pet: Didn’t make sense to me at all, so they just sounded odd. Didn’t know what it meant ’til later and when I found out I laughed. Most of my bullies were “fair weather friends” who turned on me in public. My take from that was learning how far I could trust people. Trust in some things not in other things. Still, I didn’t like the “too many people” thing so I got myself a scholarship to a tiny private school for high school to get away from the sweaty mess. Best thing.

Nerd (3rd grade. Embraced it by 4th grade and still a pride word for me).
Four eyes (ignored it).
Millimeter Peter.(5th grade camp. Bugged me ’til I realized I was the only one who even used the shower. Payback for that one? In 6th grade camp I walked naked to the shower down the hall, calmly and boldly and took a shower. Seen by many, gossip started. Butterflies but I was going to conquer it. Came back to room, changed. Came out. “Did you see that? Kenny used the shower.” – “Dude, you used the shower?” etc and a lot of them did after that. I broke the ice and felt heroic.

It was a weird victory but it was my victory. Yes, I was weird.

Gay: 3rd grade-7th, although by 7th it lost any sting. Payback for that? Read “Sexual Behavior of the Human Male” by Kinsey when I was 14 (I loved data and it had lots), and learned about the spectrum of possible male behaviors.

Weirdo: embraced that early.

Teacher’s Pet: Didn’t make sense to me at all, so they just sounded odd. Didn’t know what it meant ’til later and when I found out I laughed.

Most of my bullies were “fair weather friends” who turned on me in public. My take from that was learning how far I could trust people. Trust in some things not in other things.

Still, I didn’t like the “too many people” thing so I got myself a scholarship to a tiny private school for high school to get away from the sweaty mess. Best thing.

oh wait: had rocks thrown at me on the walk home from school a few times and got ambushed a bunch of times. That sucked. I wasn’t so much triggered (outburst) with word teasing but rather with staring and being surrounded. The kids that knew my hot buttons would just stare non-stop ’til I made an outburst that disrupted the class.

 

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