Reality can be damned irritating, I’ll give them that much.
Like, sometimes I challenge myself with the question, “What are you avoiding RIGHT NOW?”
I answer it. Write it down. Then I ask it again. Answer it. Write it down. Then ask it again.
I repeat until I hit something that makes me get out of the chair and say “fuck this shit”, and distract myself with something else.
That’s when I know I’ve “hit it”. Do I actually *face it*? No. But I get the “dealable” realities done at least.
Not officially, but I’m definitely either ADHD and/or the autistic spectrum. I wasn’t sure about ADHD until I saw something in a book (!) last year that mentioned “something hyperfocus” – and goes through hyperfocus and then at the tendency of people with ADHD to make long lists and rules. Very specific things they follow in their internal dialogue.
[or maybe it was a book on autism. Or aspergers – I don’t remember]
But yeah, definitely me. My observer even observes me in my dreams and does a running commentary. Useful in remembering them and trying to figure out their metaphors, usually based upon my last waking period.
Yeah, self-observation, whatever the diagnosis, is an always ongoing thing. I never get bored