It’s not from that. I wasn’t molested. I had a couple of scares that were no worse than the kind of stuff women deal with multiple times daily, one I brought to the attention of my favorite “church dad guy”… who disappointed me as it was the only time he wouldn’t look at me. when I really wanted a sense that he was understanding.
Years later I realized he was in “calculator mode” trying to figure out what to do next. But at the time I felt “uh oh yeah”‘d. He had a flat affect when normally he was personality.
Growing up is a mine field of adults who encroach on space and flirt. It was for me and I’m sure it is for many.
I think it’s what made me aware of power differences between people in general. I could ‘feel’ when someone was over exerting invisible power differences. It could be same age peers, older kids, adults.
Inspired me to start a youth rights group (Y-RIGHTS) online at age 18 in 1990 which I ran ’til I was 25 (and passed it on to a 14 yr old genius girl from Alaska named Alex and an Aussie professor who long had my trust, and they ran it ’til 2002, when the hosting server caught fire (banks of servers, including all backups).
I never liked how teachers and parents unduly exert (abuse) their power differences, swaggering it around.
This is why I don’t identify with the shooter in the video. The molester was in the hands of authorities. What pressures did that father put on his kid too?
Let’s see: The burden of having a dad who killed a guy that gets replayed millions of times since 1984 and has defined the boy’s entire life.
It wasn’t the molesting that defined him: It’s what happened in THIS video. The father’s actions.