It’s not a problem with remembering. It’s a problem with visualizing goals and stuff.

It’s not a problem with remembering. It’s a problem with visualizing goals and stuff.
There’s no “there” there. I don’t have a there there. The only time I get it is when I go into hyperfocus – super-nerd – everybody get-out-i’m-working-on-something mode.
If I’m not in that mode, daily stuff coming all out of order can be an assault on the senses and defending against the attack reduces available space to visualize anything.
It’s like being in a constant state of war with no end.
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When I was little, I’d be “that kid” that did outbursts in class sometimes. Everything would ok so long as things were organized at the pace I could work at.
But things out of sequence, too light or too harsh, too chaotic particularly but even too slow too, and I’d start getting tunnel vision. My ears would turn red. Ears ringing.
I learned self-hypnosis and guided meditation and biofeedback as a kid to help cope and it helped. Medication was an option but I never had it.
It’s not that I got used to it. I just restructured my life to minimize situations where I had to deal with it.

 

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They called it “Generalized Anxiety Disorder” but it overlaps with ADHD, autism, and a few other similar things. There’s not a heck of a lot of difference between them all but there’s some.

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