It’s free. Have one more. I figure it’ll go away soon so I’ll spread this shit all over the place just because I can. They could make it a poop with flies and I’d do the same. Never was much into symbolism.

It’s free. Have one more. I figure it’ll go away soon so I’ll spread this shit all over the place just because I can. They could make it a poop with flies and I’d do the same. Never was much into symbolism.

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My forehead’s been getting a little taller but no other baldings. 45 now. I did the middle aged white man thing and grew the stereotypical ponytail. One day I’ll say fuck it and do something ridiculous with it.

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I don’t sweat the labels. I wouldn’t mind one to be honest. I just got “ANXIETY” and had 1983 style biofeedback training with “breath through your feet” cassettes. Still, I learned to control a computer with my mind, (making noises go up and down) which messed with my head through to today. It’d be a relief to get “ADHD” or “Autism” as diagnosis but really, I just keep drinking lots of coffee and I’m grateful I can manage never having had to take pills yet.

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Crap people have always taken over. They’re just usually better at HIDING it.

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I’ve lived in my imagination since I was a kid, interacting when it suits me with this reality. I *can’t* join this reality completely. I’ve *tried*. Spent 10 years getting drunk with friends just to attempt to be like the folks here. But never understood drinking and most of the drugs didn’t do anything. It was fun pretending to be native though.

Only drugs that I liked were LSD and speedy things. Even then, they weren’t much different from how I am normally.

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I liked the specialfx though. Rings around lights. The “whom whom whom” sound. I got to watch imaginary zebras having a sword fight in a striped shirt I wore once. [tiny stripes, tiny zebras]. But that’s a place I can ‘go” easily enough anyway. The LSD or shrooms just kept me from having to “come back” so soon.

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