I smoke, though I don’t talk about it. I’ve done alternatives through the years. Late 90s, I substituted tiny pretzel sticks. Worked a bit, hanging around smokers but kept my hands busy. But only a bit. Did a whole year with a vape pen on a dare. After 13 months of that, back to cigarettes. Latest experiment was: Patch + vape + smoking, getting my nicotene levels just so. Put the vape aside after a month and a coughing scare. Too bad as it’s a nice unit but I let fear get the best of me. Did 1/2 patches (21mg / 2 = 10.5 mg) with cigs for the rest. Stopped patches 3 weeks ago after probably 9 months with this combination. I’m agitated more BUT it broke the I NEED A CIGARETTE thing… for now and I’m still smoking less than I did. Thing is, I don’t hate smoking. I just know I’m “supposed to” quit.

I smoke, though I don’t talk about it. I’ve done alternatives through the years.

Late 90s, I substituted tiny pretzel sticks. Worked a bit, hanging around smokers but kept my hands busy. But only a bit.

Did a whole year with a vape pen on a dare. After 13 months of that, back to cigarettes.

Latest experiment was: Patch + vape + smoking, getting my nicotene levels just so.

Put the vape aside after a month and a coughing scare. Too bad as it’s a nice unit but I let fear get the best of me.

Did 1/2 patches (21mg / 2 = 10.5 mg) with cigs for the rest. Stopped patches 3 weeks ago after probably 9 months with this combination. I’m agitated more BUT it broke the I NEED A CIGARETTE thing… for now and I’m still smoking less than I did.

Thing is, I don’t hate smoking. I just know I’m “supposed to” quit.

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In my DNA thing, a study found that folks with my particular combination:

a) don’t respond to several common stop-smoking medicines
b) are much less likely to be able to quit once started.

Some positive benefits of nicotine involve striking improvements in latent inhibition and I suspect I have “Low latent inhibition” as it would explain a lot.

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That part I knew. :) Thanks to anti-anxiety training as a kid (biofeedback and stuff), I got accustomed to partial manual control over most movable parts of my body, in order to find the points of stress, tighten and release.

At some point I noticed that odd one.

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Now I just say “release” and I can release from head to toe within a few seconds. Hardest thing is remembering to say it.

 

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