I seek holes, gaps, points of strength and weakness. In social situations, I seek exits. When I handle objects, I notice where they’re weak and strong and I’m careful because I have strong hands and have broken things when not careful

Possibly the reason. Not sure. I’m just aware of being a little bigger and a little stronger. Not as much of an issue now but when I was younger. I think it was when not paying attention to my actions, jumping ahead a little in time. Focusing on the very present is a necessity or my muscles do things a little out of order