I don’t think I’ve changed much through the years. I went religion hopping /spiritual questing in my late teens/20s but it was always to go deeper towards a few ‘somethings’ I couldn’t put my finger on.
I found them. One was an answer to a question I had when I was 14 yrs old. I was the custodian of my Methodist church (after school job) and I looked around the sanctuary and said to myself, “This place needs more candles!”
At 24, I discovered Eastern Orthodox (through a tumbly quest) and found the missing candles. [candles ended up being symbolic of a ‘depth’ that was missing from my experiences at 14].
Not a part of it now, but it holds a special place in my heart. It represented the furthest I could go in that particular direction should I choose to.
Easier exploration was when I was 18: discovered Unitarian Universalist. The UUs represented the pinnacle of “do good stuff, be a good person, accept everybody” that I saw in my Methodist church growing up, but wasn’t “quite there”.
Yet all throughout, I seem to be me still. I just have this need to explore deeper in particular avenues, going as far as I can possibly go before coming up for air, having completed that task.
No end goal in mind – just a constant need to explore forgotten avenues.