I don’t know what my emotions are most of the time
I have been and other people can see them but I am unaware of most of them by name
instead I have physical symptoms and I can describe those
I will sometimes ask myself “is this sadness? Am I sad right now?”
i’m never sure.
I get that with hunger too.
I feel a punch in my stomach and ask myself “is this hunger?”
I don’t believe it but I know that I should eat
in doubt, I eat and I am surprised that I no longer feel the punch in my stomach
this surprise is my constant repeating companion