I decided I’d become my own Father.He looked a certain way.He talked a certain way.He had a way of understanding the world and explaining things to me.

I was obsessed with Doctor Who from the age of 8. Watched with my grandmother. Imagined myself a Timelord.

Didn’t have a Father. Sad times at Boy Scouts, not other kids, but other judgmental parents. I expected other kids to suck but when adults did, it was disheartening ’cause I was afraid I’d end up like them.
I vowed not to.
I decided I’d become my own Father.
He looked a certain way.
He talked a certain way.
He had a way of understanding the world and explaining things to me.
In those times I wish there was the ‘someone’, I’d talk to this someone in my head.
Mind you – we all have voices in our head – it’s not insanity – how else can we be “of two minds about something” – the nature of thought and ideas? It’s overlapping personalities that come from other people, real or imaginary.

Anyway, I became that guy.

I look forward to my future self. I have Gandalf in mind, somewhere around 84 I’ll look awesome.

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