I was extroverted when I was little and in some circumstances I extroverted, but in environments with a lot of people, I would get anxious and shut down.. Too much input at once. [probably being 1/2 deaf, it was too much to try to make sense of all of it]
I could “feel” the social pressure but was never sure what I was “supposed to do”.
When I *would* extrovert, I did it wrong. I’d be weird. Say a stupid joke. Do something dumb. Didn’t have a thick skin.
But I developed my thicker skin through the years somewhat and I can hold my own in groups better now.
For me, I find extroverting on the Internet was the best thing. I can have the same depth I’d get in one-on-one conversations in real life, but with many people. More control.
As long as I know what I’m supposed to be doing or saying, or what role I’m playing, I’m ok. It’s when I don’t have a role that I get lost in groups. Just being “one of the crowd” was always hard and spotlight “center of attention” was too much for me.
But no complaints smile emoticon I like who I am and and try to help other ppl like themselves as well. It’s a good role for me.