Hang on: “exit bag” is a ‘thing’?
I read this book in 1991: It’d just come out. Radical stuff for the time. Talked all about the methods of suicide and the worst and best ways to go about it. I think he was Hemlock society or something.
25 years ago. Dang. … so “exit bag” became a commercializable item? Wow. Hadn’t thought of this subject in forever. Wow.
Anyway, I’d rather you didn’t do it: Your situation will eventually pass, you’ll find a solution. If you’re gonna off yourself, make it for something FAR more interesting than your current problem, Your identity isn’t your sleeping arrangements or your current financial woes.
Do a GoFundMe or something. I’ll pitch in $1.
Since you’re not religious, find a nearby Unitarian Universalist church. They take atheist/agnostic/Buddhist/New Age/etc and even though they’re politically left generally, ,you could make things interesting for them.
Meanwhile, maybe they’ll help you get a place to lay your head for a bit and help you find steady work. Churches do that sort of thing and while they might not be politically compatible with you, they’re irreligiously compatible.
Be sure to talk about the influence you’ve had in online society with the various groups you run, and how you’ve been helping provide a voice for the downtrodden right… it’ll be challenging for them and you’ll be an interesting enough character that they’d love to have you.