good question.
I was “capturing my thoughts” quite literally at the time.
I had several notecards in front of me for about 6-9 months wherever I was and I would try to write down my every thought as I had it.
It was fun, and people were used to me being weird so having a few index cards around wasn’t so odd. [I think]
In this case, WHAT I THOUGHT and WHAT I WROTE weren’t exactly the same.
What I wrote was better than what I thought but not just that:
I ALSO wanted to keep the dual views of
“nothing ever goes as planned” VS “nothing ever really goes as planned”
– which is “as written”, with the ^ insert when one second guesses the original thought a moment after having it
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A longer version would have had me say it twice:
Nothing goes as planned.
Scratch that.
Nothing ever REALLY goes as planned. [because sometimes it does]
also: I had to negate THIS NOTECARD as well because it too is a plan.
And it didn’t go to plan either.
It’s a self-referential card
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