You’re welcome Calla. You have a mind bursting with creativity and a need to express concepts difficult to put into words. Your poetic dedication is perfect and expresses your intentions perfectly.
There will always be critics. That’s what they do. Criticize. They don’t matter unless you decide to let them matter.
Also, on the material side of things, publishing is easy. I did an experiment last year. I wrote and published two books on Amazon. I didn’t expect them to sell; I wanted to understand The Process and get it out of my system.
http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=ntt_athr_dp_sr_1…
A couple of people were kind to bought to make me feel good, but I already didn’t care about the sales. I just wanted to be able to say, “Yeah, I’m an Author” if it came up.
It took ALL THAT STRESS out of it… of trying to be perfect the first time out the gate.
I already had the writings/info. I just learned how to stick it in a format that Amazon considered worthy and BOOM, collected and published in an hour and a half. [I challenged myself to 45 minutes, which I reached the second time]
So even if you don’t get *everything* you want, you can get some of what you want. And you don’t have to stress about it. Get scared, imagine how someone who was bored by what you’re so scared by does it, and do it their way.