But there’s a baseline in there somewhere. Not really a mathematical average, more like, a default resting point.

Well yeah, emotions pass by like clouds. They come and go and new ones come in.

But there’s a baseline in there somewhere. Not really a mathematical average, more like, a default resting point.

When I say happy, I don’t mean Mormon perfect smiles. I mean finding your authentic resting point. Center I guess, but that sounds a bit new agey.

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well, yeah, bullshit sells books. I guess the be happy thing to me is, “be whoever you are when you’re not even trying”. Something like that. It’s shit to try to put into words – I don’t have the right words to say it right.

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I actually was proud of myself with my little concise phrasing but you raised excellent points about the “be happy” part and I appreciate that.

I mean, _I knew_ what I meant by ‘be happy’ but it didn’t occur to me that it might come across as something different.

[I had posted it to a couple of places but went ahead and deleted them because the “be happy” _is_ misleading ’cause that’s not really what I’m getting at. I still have to find the right words without it sounding *too* cliche if possible tongue emoticon ]

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I miss my synth. I have it, but it sits unplugged for years. Korg MS-2000. Old thing. Lots of fun. Never had a proper music workstation setup anyway.

Sex was overrated for me, never did much after a while. Found it too hysterical to take seriously.

Happy ’til I piss myself just gets my lightheaded. Good belly laugh a couple times of year is good for me. Nitrous oxide boost and all that.

Yeah, to me that’s giddiness. It has its place – and I like it sometimes. I guess for me, I find raising the moment-to-moment baseline up was helpful through the years. Peaks are nice, but weren’t sustainable to me, and peaks always seemed to be followed by deep troughs which were awful.

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