Autistic people always make sense to me. Like, in the 80s, there was a TV story about a boy who was spinning plates. His parents were worried. The doctors were worried. He’d flap his hands and spin plates and have outbursts. I remember thinking “I know why the boy does these things” and what _I_ couldn’t understand is how the doctors and parents were so clueless. All they wanted was “why can’t he just be normal?” but he was normal for him. That’s the part I couldn’t understand why they couldn’t see that. So that was my first exposure to something with the name of autism and back then it was a more strict category. It’s better now that it’s a spectrum and encompasses a wider swath of territory.

Autistic people always make sense to me. Like, in the 80s, there was a TV story about a boy who was spinning plates. His parents were worried. The doctors were worried. He’d flap his hands and spin plates and have outbursts.
I remember thinking “I know why the boy does these things” and what _I_ couldn’t understand is how the doctors and parents were so clueless.
All they wanted was “why can’t he just be normal?” but he was normal for him. That’s the part I couldn’t understand why they couldn’t see that.
So that was my first exposure to something with the name of autism and back then it was a more strict category.
It’s better now that it’s a spectrum and encompasses a wider swath of territory.

 

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Oh it’s ok. I don’t feel anything from his comment. Either he’s right or wrong or something inbetween. I take it into account but it doesn’t seem to ring true.
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The case for ADHD in me is also very strong. The clincher for ADHD for me was learning about hyperfocus, which is a feature in ADHD – a coping skill – that many descriptions of ADHD miss.
But is it high functioning autism or Asperger’s?
That’s where it’s tricky. Friends that are “Aspies” always claim me as one of their own and I feel they are kindred spirits as do people who are autistic.
Yet, few solid things bring me over into what I think would be considered autism.
Yet, recently I was researching how different areas of the brain light up when autistic people figure out certain situations than for neurotypical people. It’s not that autistic people are incapable of such things as implicit knowledge but things are processed differently and don’t always end up in the same conclusions.
This is the area I’m researching right now as I want to be firm with a validated school-of-thought regarding autism that rings true for me entirely. Then I’ll fully claim it. Still on the skeptical side though, despite what this Facebook message said.
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Oh definitely continue being you. There may be psychological toxicity there that you accurately saw but I may be clueless to it / blind to it.
I can see it when it happens to others. But when it’s happening to me, I can ‘sorta see it’ but it slides right by most of the time. It’s been a positive and also a negative in life, particularly in the kinds of socially charged situations where ‘correct action’ in a limited time frame is required to avoid getting hurt.
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 Yeah, it makes sense. Like, I can see it in you but I can’t see it in myself. I suspect you can see it in me, but couldn’t see it in yourself. So the best either of us can do is tentatively take other people’s word for it.
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