At 11, I was supposed to go to Julliard music school. Right near the entry time, I bowed out. I could see my future and I didn’t like it. Same time frame, I stopped a “Gifted Class” test when I realized it wasn’t for me. I love going in deep but quickly. I can’t free float. I need to stay tethered so long as I choose the tether.

At 11, I was supposed to go to Julliard music school. Right near the entry time, I bowed out. I could see my future and I didn’t like it. Same time frame, I stopped a “Gifted Class” test when I realized it wasn’t for me. I love going in deep but quickly. I can’t free float. I need to stay tethered so long as I choose the tether.

 

I’m basically a musician. I can play any instrument (so far) enough to satisfy most people but not critics. That kept me out of music performance.I didn’t know it was a gifted class test until 3/4 of the way through.. 5th grade, “Hey Kenny got a test for you”. By myself, alone with a teacher for an hour. Quietly taking a test. 3/4 of the way through, I figured out what it was probably for. I asked, “Do I HAVE to take this?” No, but you want to be in gifted classes right? “No, I don’t. Can I go?” ._…..sure_
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They never asked me. Never said what it was for. I had to figure it out. Felt disrespected. Teachers were always older equals to me. I could do what they do and I knew it as a kid.
 That’s how I am. I want to learn what I want. I spent a lot of time in the library as a kid and got online in 1989 and never looked back. There is SO MUCH in this world to understand and I love probing below the surface of things. I DON’T like how fragmented subject classifications are and how different groups can be working on the SAME problem but because their technical fields speak different languages, they’re wasting effort.
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You have focus. Could you make $ as a theoretical physicist? Definitely. Would you be dong the same work at the same level of challenge? Absolutely.
 
Work environment and schedule might be tricky though. But I think following your passion is absolutely the right direction. Inertia is amazing if you allow it to function.
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 Oh, there’s always a new angle to pursue. String theory kept theoretical physicists busy for a decade. Now there’s a lot done in geometry, algorithms, quantum computing – EVERYBODY wants to turn their field “quantum” so there’s always a spot for pure research.
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 “You are at a crossroads in your life” is something every psychic gets right as we humans always seem to be at that spot, it seems. You’re doing great, at least from this FB side of things and your passion will pull you through all this.
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 I never mastered math symbols, music symbols, logic symbols, any symbols. I can read most computer code of most languages though, but not symbols. Diagrams are nice though as they paint a quick picture in my head that I can take and play with in my mind a bit.
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 Same. I have visualize it or “feel” an intuitive “can’t explain it” understanding. I envy those that can get that through symbolic representations. Occasionally I can but it’s rare.
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 As a kid, I related my algebra to things like nested FOR LOOPS. I taught myself programming prior to pre-algebra so once I was introduced, I already had a methodology for comprehension of functions in my head, so I had to translate it in my mind as I did my classwork.
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I liked graphing and programming games as a kid. When they handed me a scientific graphing calculator in high school, I didn’t know what to do with it. Still don’t..
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 If I can ‘see’ a formula as an Excel function, I can do it. =SUM(…) I ‘get. But when I see the Sum symbol in an equation my brain goes BZZT. Visceral reaction. No logical reason.
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BASIC I learned as it’s all I had. Pascal I learned because I could take advantage of advanced (at the time) computer capabilities. Other languages were curiousity (most) or stuff like PHP (easiest way to accomplish my goal at the time), Python I HAVE … Violin?I think so.I can play most musical instruments. It’s ‘a feel’ for encouraging the notes out of an instrument.My only bowed was a cello. Got it for $50 on eBay in 2001. Taught myself to play, but it hurt my back, so I sold it for $150 at xmastime 9 months later.Anything can be learned if you’re curious and driven.
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 Trick to bowed is “stick-slip”. Mostly stick. Friction. On a molecular level, visualize the tiny hairs with the rosin (which is sticky) quickly sticking and slipping on the strings of the violin encouraging the orthagonal string to vibrate at the frequency set by its tension between two ends. Convincing your arm to cooperate in this macro-to-micro feat is shoulder, elbow, wrist tilt.
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 Yeah. It’s straightforward harmonics. I play around with those on guitars when I see one. Harmonic series is fun.
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 I like simultaneous notes that are slightly out of tune. They create ‘beats’ inbetween which form their own notes if you listen. There’s also GREAT satisfaction in getting them to ‘line up’ making the beats disappear. Hence, if you put a guitar in front of me, first thing I do is tune it. It’s fun.
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If I don’t like someone, I might tune their guitar JUST wrong enough that I can hear the slightly out of phase but they can’t. A superiority thing. I only did it a few times in my life so far but I got to secretly smile.
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 I tend towards mania side of things. My goal is usually trying to keep it from going past my capabilities but I cross over often.
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